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Alright.
For those of you who don't know me, don't remember, or haven't seen me change...
I am me. I will not give out my real name any more, as that shows more pride than my self-esteem gives me.
Some know me as Bryann, some as Techno, some as Ashton. In this journal, I will refer to myself by the persona I've become most like, the semi-personal character I have on Tapestries MUCK, Techno.
For those who don't know, Tapestries is a furry TS MUCK, mostly, though some peoples (like myself) much prefer it for roleplay purposes.
Before any of you say anything, yes. Yes, I am a furry.
And yes, I'm one of those furries that enjoys the thought of a cat with breasts larger than my head. Nyaou! n.n
However, I do not, nor will I ever -want- to, 'fursuit'. My lifestyle, if you can call it that, is simply a frame of mind. In the mindframes of others, I am just as human as anyone else, and I will not strive to make myself seen differently. I have gotten enough special treatment in my life as it is, I don't go out of my way for more.
I am bipolar. This is common knowledge by now, and I have in the past banded with friends similar to me. (Hey, Heather! Hey, Stelas!) This means that, no matter what, there will be times when I -angst-. I'm not talking normal depression here. I'm talking the type of shit that gives weblogs a bad name. The whiny, bitchy type of angst. You know what I'm talking about, you played FF7. At least, if you're here, you most likely did.
I am a romantic oilspill. This is not because I'm bad at romance - in fact, I've been told by several people that it's quite the opposite - so much as I'm a leech. If you get close enough, I'll latch on. In that clingy way. I've yet to find true love, because everyone I get intimate with falls into that pit in my mind. I need to put up signs or something.
In addition, the past three or four girlfriends I've had (I lost count and/or stopped caring after Alisha) have been long-distance relationships. I meet people on IRC or Taps, where I get affectionate for them, until which point things just end up... not working. Amusingly, Alisha, the person I meshed with best, turned out to be a raving psycho. Oh, and on that note...
PROTIP: People with bipolar should not date other people with bipolar. It causes a lot of screaming matches.
Yes, folks, I am a virgin. At least if using one's hand/hands is considered staying chaste. However, online, I'm such a slut it's not funny. I'm trying to stop that side of me, but it's far from easy.
Hmm. What else... oh, yes. I love music, am music. I am utterly convinced that by this point, if it weren't for music to keep me level, I'd be in a much worse place than I am now.
I appreciate all forms of music, though I tend to edge less towards (c)rap and country, and more towards techno and eurobeat. Yes, the name came from my musical tastes.
Naoki Maeda is not God, nor Jesus per se, but he is a damn fine musician, to hell with what anyone else says.
On that note, so we get it out of the way - I am a Christian. I am the Christian which most Christians don't want to be associated with. Not because I'm fanatical like Jerry Falwell, no. I have my own take on the religion. I follow the spirit of the Bible, yes, but I don't believe God to be a Clausian linebacker-built shining giant with white hair flowing everywhere. No, I do not.
What do I believe, you ask?
....remember Bahamut from the Final Fantasy games?
Eeeyup, that's him. In a slightly modified form, of course, but Bahamut all the same.
Before anyone says anything, I -know- Bahamut was originally a giant -fish- in Mesopotamian legend. Gilgamesh also wasn't a four-armed samurai with a penchant for bumbling things. Deal with it.
Anything else..... hmn. Oh, yes. I'm bisexual, in arousal if not practice. I get perfectly aroused by the guys, but I'll be damned if I take one up the ass. No. Just, no. No no no. Similarly, I won't do that to any male or female unless they -really- want me to.
Oh, and if you hadn't noticed by now, I'm a lech. ^_-
For those of you who don't know me, don't remember, or haven't seen me change...
I am me. I will not give out my real name any more, as that shows more pride than my self-esteem gives me.
Some know me as Bryann, some as Techno, some as Ashton. In this journal, I will refer to myself by the persona I've become most like, the semi-personal character I have on Tapestries MUCK, Techno.
For those who don't know, Tapestries is a furry TS MUCK, mostly, though some peoples (like myself) much prefer it for roleplay purposes.
Before any of you say anything, yes. Yes, I am a furry.
And yes, I'm one of those furries that enjoys the thought of a cat with breasts larger than my head. Nyaou! n.n
However, I do not, nor will I ever -want- to, 'fursuit'. My lifestyle, if you can call it that, is simply a frame of mind. In the mindframes of others, I am just as human as anyone else, and I will not strive to make myself seen differently. I have gotten enough special treatment in my life as it is, I don't go out of my way for more.
I am bipolar. This is common knowledge by now, and I have in the past banded with friends similar to me. (Hey, Heather! Hey, Stelas!) This means that, no matter what, there will be times when I -angst-. I'm not talking normal depression here. I'm talking the type of shit that gives weblogs a bad name. The whiny, bitchy type of angst. You know what I'm talking about, you played FF7. At least, if you're here, you most likely did.
I am a romantic oilspill. This is not because I'm bad at romance - in fact, I've been told by several people that it's quite the opposite - so much as I'm a leech. If you get close enough, I'll latch on. In that clingy way. I've yet to find true love, because everyone I get intimate with falls into that pit in my mind. I need to put up signs or something.
In addition, the past three or four girlfriends I've had (I lost count and/or stopped caring after Alisha) have been long-distance relationships. I meet people on IRC or Taps, where I get affectionate for them, until which point things just end up... not working. Amusingly, Alisha, the person I meshed with best, turned out to be a raving psycho. Oh, and on that note...
PROTIP: People with bipolar should not date other people with bipolar. It causes a lot of screaming matches.
Yes, folks, I am a virgin. At least if using one's hand/hands is considered staying chaste. However, online, I'm such a slut it's not funny. I'm trying to stop that side of me, but it's far from easy.
Hmm. What else... oh, yes. I love music, am music. I am utterly convinced that by this point, if it weren't for music to keep me level, I'd be in a much worse place than I am now.
I appreciate all forms of music, though I tend to edge less towards (c)rap and country, and more towards techno and eurobeat. Yes, the name came from my musical tastes.
Naoki Maeda is not God, nor Jesus per se, but he is a damn fine musician, to hell with what anyone else says.
On that note, so we get it out of the way - I am a Christian. I am the Christian which most Christians don't want to be associated with. Not because I'm fanatical like Jerry Falwell, no. I have my own take on the religion. I follow the spirit of the Bible, yes, but I don't believe God to be a Clausian linebacker-built shining giant with white hair flowing everywhere. No, I do not.
What do I believe, you ask?
....remember Bahamut from the Final Fantasy games?
Eeeyup, that's him. In a slightly modified form, of course, but Bahamut all the same.
Before anyone says anything, I -know- Bahamut was originally a giant -fish- in Mesopotamian legend. Gilgamesh also wasn't a four-armed samurai with a penchant for bumbling things. Deal with it.
Anything else..... hmn. Oh, yes. I'm bisexual, in arousal if not practice. I get perfectly aroused by the guys, but I'll be damned if I take one up the ass. No. Just, no. No no no. Similarly, I won't do that to any male or female unless they -really- want me to.
Oh, and if you hadn't noticed by now, I'm a lech. ^_-
